Words for Fellow Moms Diagnosed with Cancer

I didn’t celebrate my “cancerversary” this year

not much more than a label now

only what I put into it

thankfully so much has changed in nearly 7 years.

but more Mom’s are struggling now

and my heart aches with knowing and wanting to help

this is a pic of me and the girls

a few months after I was diagnosed

a nice day

but I was suffering inside

I remember the feelings

no one should feel

the fear of leaving my babies

motherless.

I prayed

begged

bargained

for time with them

told them it was just “ouies in my tummy”

I had to hide it.

They shouldn’t have to know

the terror

the fear

the looks of pity

other people’s idea of cancer

I couldn’t let it be mine

I was meant to be their mom

that's my purpose

I had to focus on it

eyes on them

arms around them

Nurturing

Fear stalking me from every angle

I would face it

to stay,

to be theirs

these years

have meant everything.

the deepest desperation under a crushing weight

Lifted

my prayers for the future

answered everyday

something indescribable

I hope you aren’t faced with it,

but if you are

ask yourself what you want

what it might take

what you CAN do

Mostly,

Give all your concentration

to LOVE

to what you believe in

Embody it

Feel it expanding

Creating hope

beyond the horizon

illuminating the future

Let it be yours

XO
Lorika


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