The "C" Word

So much has changed since this picture

Leaving the hospital

Smiling to go home

But wrecked by a word so heavy

indescribable unless you’ve been there

I know some of you have

This is the only picture from that time

I didn’t want to capture

The surgeries

The loss

I was crushed by that word

So violently

It changed everything

All it meant to live

That one word

Like a moment choking

My heart drowning

I could go on

But chances are you know

A personal hell

A panic and defeat

All your own

so defining you can hardly breathe

What did you do?

I was paralyzed

Stunned into submission

By the terror that was sold to me

By resounding ideas and looks they gave me

Such torment

I had to escape

I had to transform

Despair into dreams

My kids would know

My purpose in life

To love

The light in their eyes

Makes me ten times stronger

Reminds me to be wholeheartedly me

To release what I was told about cancer

There is so much healing in this world

That fear can’t see

I decided to let fear go

Open my eyes and believe

XO,
Lorika